As days, weeks and months pass by I wonder if this agony shall pass.

But it won’t,

My heart is so heavy with the constant reminder you are not with us,

Looking at the bigger picture without you by my side is terrifying,

It hurts to see all the mothers with their daughters. I am so envious of their love,

Wondering when I’ll be okay again, it seems like it’s lightyears away,

I try and pick up my head like you always told me to do, but some days I just want to hide from the world,

Wondering if anyone would even notice if I were gone,

This life is just not the same without you,

I wish I could restart my life. I would appreciate all the little memories more,

I’d hug you tighter,

Kiss you more,

Not fight with you as much as I did,

I’m so sorry for not appreciating you as much as I should have,

As these tears stream down my face, I am screaming at the world,

Why me?

Why now?

Why do I feel this way inside?

The sad truth is we may never know why bad things happen to people. They just simply do. I’m just one of the unlucky ones to have to go through this so early

You made me strong,

You made me yours,

Just know mom, I’ll love you forever.

With love,

Your chica