As I lie awake I try and go back to when times were much simpler. We were happier then, you embraced our family like a cozy blanket on a cool winter night. The warmth of your smile lit our home like a fire that kept us safe. The laughter that filled our home kept us up for hours remembering all the small things in life to make the hard times pass by.

The love we had for each other was so magnificent, the rush. The thrill of each and every day as we always came back to each other to share a meal and conversations is now tarnished. As the sun went away. When will it rise again? You are gone, this is true heartbreak, my happiness has ruptured as I try and piece together why this all happened. You gave me life and now my life is damaged.

We try and carry on our days as if you were here but we can’t see you – where are you? I try and talk to you and I don’t hear anything back. I miss your voice. My heart aches for all of the moments that have yet to surpass me. I miss you. I miss our family. I wish you could guide me through this, I never would have thought you would be gone.

My sweet beautiful sunflower has now wilted – come back to life, come back to us. I promise to love you forever, to remember the light you had brought to my life – you are my whole world, sunflower.

With love,

Sammy