Wow this has been an extensive period from not hearing from me. 

I could go on a spiel about how I have been busy Blah blah blah — 

No. Honestly, I lost my muse for a bit. I had friendships and relationships come and go and I was in such a transitioning period where I couldn’t write anything that meant anything to me. Rain it always reminds me to slow down. This really shows how busy our daily lives can get, if we just let the rain fall and watch new growth take its course we won’t miss out on the little things life is trying to show us. 

I really missed writing, I hope you guys haven’t forgotten about me. I wanted to touch on one thought I’ve had recently and that is self doubt.

I don’t know if this a recent thing but the last 8 months I have really developed self doubt which has harbored many things in my life whether that be my own anxiety, friends, family and dating. 

I finally realized just to let go…This was something I told myself daily and finally one day it just clicked. I stopped surrounding myself around drama, negativity, bad behavior. Putting my foot down to bullies and walked away, while that didn’t make me very popular I learned how to find myself again. By find myself I mean the girl I used to know – years ago. I always adored her. This influenced me to want to improve myself for me, to eat better, workout more because of the way it made me feel. 

I told myself daily “Let go sam” “Think about yourself” “Trust your gut” Those words got me through some months of extreme heartbreak. 

With many life changes the past six months I finally met someone. 

Now I won’t name any names but this was a real game changer for me, I was self independent and all but I am proud to say I found the one that makes my heart melt. If you asked me year ago if I thought I’d be in a relationship I probably would have scoffed at the idea. 

Now as the rain washes away my past I can now start over to a new chapter of my life. Moving forward with my head up high I can tackle any storm that comes at me because I know a rainbow will follow even the nastiest of storms. 

No matter what wheather you are facing, tackle it head on. You are so much stronger than you let on so just let nature run its course and soon my darling, the sun will shine. 

xoxo

Sweetly, 

Samantha