As the new year has arrived, I have decided to focus on my soul. I hope to love myself unconditionally, because I know no one can bring me happiness. This might sound cynical but it is true.

THIS IS THE YEAR OF GLOW

How are we meant to love someone without being happy on our own?

My new years goal:

I have promised to take myself out on a date once a week. This proves to myself that I AM worth it. If there isn’t someone wanting to take me out then why can’t I do that for my own well being?

This week, it was a casual movie night. Ah so simple, yet refreshing. Have you ever been to the movies alone? It’s amazing. I had a lot of time to enjoy my own company and honestly, I am a good time. Doing things alone is great for self-discovery, I realized I don’t need or want anyone else’s satisfaction.

I think one problem is I tend to come across too strong. I can be loud and eccentric but I will not change, because I really don’t care what anyone thinks of me. My self worth has grown so much that I will not let someone in that doesn’t make me shine like the diamond I know I am. With this promise, I will not let myself get hurt. I will trust myself deeply.

So here is to growth, to not giving a shit what people think of me.

The people who care about you will stay in your life no matter what. Those are the ones who are meant to stay.

I used to overthink absolutely every situation in my head but it causes me more harm than good. I know I am powerful and that the ball is now in my court.

Let’s make a promise:

In 2020 we are saying goodbye to the snakes. If they don’t cheer for you even at your lowest then they aren’t on your side. Unfortunately, many people in our lives have hidden agendas. Just be aware of your surroundings and focus on where and who you want to be.

Now, go kick some ass and be just the way you want to be.

The moral of this tangent is to just be YOURSELF. I cannot stress that enough. Forget the stigma you think you have to stack up to. Who even made all that up anyway? I respect people more when they are showing their true colors. Life is far too short to be living a double life. If you think about it, people either are here for it or they are not, so why would you want people that critique your choices negatively anyway. My best advice, know your worth and move on. Even though it may hurt, do it for you. Just peel that Band-Aid off and move on.

Remember, you got this.

xoxo,

Samantha