Dear Jennifer,

Happy Birthday mommy. On this day 47 years ago you were brought into this world. Steve and Kathy did a great job at raising you. They created a sweet, caring girl with the most infectious laugh – gosh I wish I could hear you laugh one more time. This is hard for me to write only because I don’t want to accept that this is my life now – empty.

I wanted to fill you in on some of the things you missed. Thanksgiving was very nice our whole little family came together over a wonderful meal that grandma made. Bre and the family also came down for Christmas. Karina talks now!! I know you would have loved to see that, shes so cute. Kinley is very outgoing which you already knew. I think the saddest thing is that Kinley knows but not the severity of it all. She says “Nana is in heaven with the rest of the family” I wish I could think of it that way. Children see the best in everything. Kinley also told me that she talks to you like I do –

As for our house, Dad and Cam are okay. I know Cam is struggling today, he asked to be alone. The doggies are good! Although Reesy is getting old and might pay you a visit soon.   As for me, well I don’t really know. I have alot of mixed emotions for this year. I have been burrying myself in golf to take the pain away from my heart. I have done a good job at loving myself, I know thats all you wanted for me. Still no boyfriend, but for the first time I’m okay with that. The time isn’t right just yet.

It is with a heavy heart that you cannot blow out your birthday candles today. We all miss you dearly, I especially miss your advice. You were my bestfriend, my inspiration and most importantly, my mother. I hope one day you can see me from wherever you are. I hope you can be there for my graduation, to see me chase my golf career, fall in love, get married and have some grandbabies that you loved so much.

Today, we celebrate your life. An amazing selfless woman that gave her family everything she could. You left this earth too soon, I’m so sorry that you had to go through all of that. Wishing you the moon and the stars, I know you watch over all of us like a sweet angel. I miss you so much it hurts my heart. This still doesn’t seem real without you. Thank you mommy, for everything. Thanking you for all the unconditional love you have given me. I am a better woman today because of you, it was all because of you.

Now rest –

Love you forever and always,

Your chica